Monday, February 21, 2005

Ok?

Ok yea idk bout you but im really getting sick of these weekends! same shit all the time wtf and now since im in college it's like everyday is the weekend..god t suxs!!
O yea i straightened my hair and yea its ok wierd I never had straight hair before. SO its a change..Fuck god im soo sick of certain people!!! and shrek 2 is pretty funny..blah blah blah.....Yea for some reason I feel like I have to get in contact with all the girls I hurt and say im sorry..idk y...but i talked to my EX the other day for about 2 hours and I realized that I really screwed up the greatest thing I had with a girl...Totally SUXSS...well till next time?

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Kool WebSite I Just Found

Monday, February 07, 2005

Dreaming Rape

It's 3 am now, the wind howls outside with a complicated calmness. The girl next door change's again with the shades open and the lights on. But Alex isn't interested in that anymore. He's been there and done that. The day was warm, started off like a normal day. Alex left his house ran across the street, and sat on the curb. Blinded by hatered from a household of criptic liars. He didn't notice her walk towards him, till she sat down. There she was, the girl next door. The girl he only new by preying the blinds were open at night. She sat down looked at alex and ask why you crying? Alex stared into her full blue eyes and replied, "my house is hell and right now your the only bright spot in my life"! She looked at him and said "well my house isn't any better,my dad like's to watch me change". Alex offered to comfort her and murder her dad but she didn't want him to saying "i'm going to be the one to murder him"! Alex gets up and asks for the girls hand, she rises and replies "my name is Stacy". Alex allmost fars down by her cerisma, but stands his ground and ask's her to go with him to a place he likes to go when he's deppressed. She walks with him without any words. It only took 30 min but they are there now, next to the river under the bridge. They found a spot on a rock with silence all over the river. Alex stared with empty eyes over to Stacy and asked for a kiss! She leaned over and kissed him on the lips with no effort at first, but then Alex got a crazed look in his eyes. He grabed Stacy and threw her on the ground, she screamed but around here Alex knew no one would ever listen. So Alex continued, he tore off her dress and unziped his pants. Alex's voice got deep and vorger now with anger pouring out of him. Stacy cried but Alex didn't care all he wanted was what was under her dress. Alex forces himself on her, fingering and enjoying, Alex says " fresh and soft just like a virgin"! He get's more violent, now he pussing her head down and pulling her hair! Stacy cries out for help but with no prevale. Alex stops abruptly! Looks down at Stacy, her body pail and motionless. Alex hasn't realized what he has done yet, but he jumps up to convey the situation. He panic's and races off home. Alex gets to his front door shaking with fear, he runs upstairs and take's off all his cloths and lays in bed, crying over what he could've had, but just ruined. Alex wakes up and looks out his window, there she was Stacy or was it? Alex confused by what he thought had happened, now shes the girl next door changing next to her window again. He falls down on his knees, realizing that last night was just a dream, a dream so real in this life of a deranged teen.

Sunday, February 06, 2005

FUCK

Can any1 help me out here? My whole buddy list just disappered wtf......

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

HELL.com

OK can someone please tell me what hell.com is? I got into a chatting room there and eberyone is lost just like me. Is it a secret organization like the free masons or like just a website that the gov made so no one else would use it? Like is it just BS for religous reasons?

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Tough predicament I've been put in......

Ok today was a good day. Got to see my freind get slaped by this girl that hates him cause he went around and told every1 that she raped him lol .. But then I came home started talking to this girl who's one of my best freinds....ok I won't use names in this to protect the people but listen to this hole im in. This girl told her boyfreind in december that she hooked up with me when we never did (all though i always wanted to) but I really wouldn't have cared for the fact that I never thought Id meet him.Until fri then sat and I think him and his freinds are kool guys. But see at this time I didn't know bout wat she had said to him about me, until today, and now he like dislikes me lol wtf. not really, I could give 2 shits but still it's just the fact. Then I find out why see used me as an excuse to he boyfreind. She fucking hooked up with her BF's bestfriend haha. Then she tells me that I was the only person she thought she could trust.(which is true im a very trusting guy).Now heres my delimea, Do I tell him the truth to rectify the situation, and lose her as a good friend? Or do I keep the cat in the bag and just say fuck it I don't care what he thinks?