Im A tragedy in A tradic world
Im filled with grief and misery
Suicide was an option till I failed
I fuction day to day without emotion or flare
I have many friends, but none of them are every there
Tonite is just like all the rest
Alone in bed
Seeking the answer to my only question
One so simple yet disburbing
Is there anything left?
Is there anything left worth losing?


Ight wow i just had jerky and i just swallowed a whole shit load of pepper!!!!!!
Ive been writing in this alot lately idk y? Guess cause the summer is ending or because ive been drunk like everyday this month lol..........

"I was goin to do it but I didnt
Im just a boy with feelings of a saint
Its hard to get to know you like I want
But I will

I will love you like a god"

That how I really feel@!!! NO JOKE

But back 2 me ...
I reeally thought that just before I was goin to get puklled ova that wouldve been sooooo bad...
really bad it sucks.....


Idk wat to tell yall .... I love 70s music, it puts me into this state of mind which I love....

"Fuck what you heard I have better lies"

Simple was what she said
Difficult is what came to be
I thought one thing Felt others
Now I dont know what two think
Do you like me, do I like you
When will it procede to more
Freindships with you are overated
Late nights fist fights sex under the lights
Thats what I want
Thats what I fear
I love simple things
I love simple people
You make me hate you
For being so difficult
For being so sane

..Fuck what you heard I have better lies.. is straight from


"Poem's of a Emotional Vampire" by JonMotherFuckinPl*n



ive lived
ive learned
ive tried
ive failed
i won
i lost
i fell
i got back up
ive dated
ive been rejected
ive lied
ive cried
ive seen the devil
ive seen the light
i walked the yellow brick road
ive turned away from the fork in the road
ive said fuck you
ive been told to fuck off
i will end this how shit ends
weak and harse
fucked and lonely
leave me and what you've read alone
all i am is just a phony

..Just a Phony..

Go Figure

Im sooo confused....Im like this kid who has no clue about certain things? I wanna know what you think and I dont.....I have no clue!!! Its like a twisted mixed bad of emotions in my head...WTF........
Im sorta drunk not really, ive been drinkin like every other day and now my beer tolerence is sooo high....I drank 9 beers and im not even buzzed wtf is up with that?
I need a change . a change in life in friends idk but something has to give soon its drivin me nuts!!!!
I just saw BEERFEST it was pretty funny not as funny as Super Troopers but funnier then Club Dread.... I have work tomm it should be kool first day im there since the store has been open soo its goin to be diff..

I realized something about myself the other day...For some reason when I get close to girls I always seem to disapear from them..its fucked up i kno but its true...And I think its because Im afraid of getting hurt? wierd right but true.... I find myself stuck in situtations where I just wanna get out of... I dont understand ....

My life is like a car crash, but my car is totalled and its spining out of control....
Im not depressed not mad but off...somethings not clickin with my emotional state of mind... I thought I had a handle on things but I dont!!

...aKISSisWORTHaTHOUSANDwords...




loveMEhateME Im 20 and after that ull get a diff guy...Promise 2 all when I turn 21 life as I know it will change...PEACE

V is for Vendetta

I have a VENDETTA towards a friend of mine...I havent told this person or any1 of my other friends this. But its true I dont hate this person I just sorta dis like that person sometimes. It started in a weird way and im not exactly sure why I have this VENDETTA but its there and its not goin to go away........................................................Now since we got all that hatered out of our system lets talk buisness..?

Its 130am I just took a stroll down memory lane by reading all my old blogs on here...and it was a mixed bag of emotions.....some sad some depressed some happy..but its kool cause without this I wouldnt remember half the shit Ive done/...lol the truth....

Almost exactly 2 months till I turn 21 which believe me feels like 10 years...I understand that yea its not a big deal cause every1 drinks way before 21 anyways but it is.......

I come to the realization why this summer has been so/so .............................?

I have this *chick* friend that thinks she looks better with blonde hair instead of black....HA shes crazy!!!!

OOOO I got a job with 2 friends maybe 3 and its mad chill lol I finally got $$$$ soo hopefully im back in the game.......


* .........In A insane world Your the most sane choice........ *

September Fourth.

Flesh of my Flesh Blood of my Blood

YOOOOOOOOO


WTF I dont get it.........HOES lol.....
I have friends I have chick friends''''.....BUT
As u can tell... 2 all DMX fans thats wat im rockin 2 right now.....the heat is on...are u ready to fly

.......Im drunk as fuck ... doin 100 on 80 getiin the finger by some 40something in a trunk soo i sped up around 120hit him off with the middle and dipped around 150 with voldka sraight to the brain is like blow to ur lips.... he tried to keep up hit me or someshit idk but my Vtech was like surrrrreeeee ..... fuck u bitch call the cops ill out run there ass like OJ and not the serades version of bettlejuice..... see wat happens when im drunk...idc like to be stupid fuck it ill drive a buck50 on the highway and outRun the feds...they aint got shit...


IIIII wish u knew buts u dont .....aint no way u goin to stop my flow... im 2222 nice lol...ill show u more ass then a hoe .....




NOW ur ASS is MISSIN.........faggot