Go Figure

Im sooo confused....Im like this kid who has no clue about certain things? I wanna know what you think and I dont.....I have no clue!!! Its like a twisted mixed bad of emotions in my head...WTF........
Im sorta drunk not really, ive been drinkin like every other day and now my beer tolerence is sooo high....I drank 9 beers and im not even buzzed wtf is up with that?
I need a change . a change in life in friends idk but something has to give soon its drivin me nuts!!!!
I just saw BEERFEST it was pretty funny not as funny as Super Troopers but funnier then Club Dread.... I have work tomm it should be kool first day im there since the store has been open soo its goin to be diff..

I realized something about myself the other day...For some reason when I get close to girls I always seem to disapear from them..its fucked up i kno but its true...And I think its because Im afraid of getting hurt? wierd right but true.... I find myself stuck in situtations where I just wanna get out of... I dont understand ....

My life is like a car crash, but my car is totalled and its spining out of control....
Im not depressed not mad but off...somethings not clickin with my emotional state of mind... I thought I had a handle on things but I dont!!

...aKISSisWORTHaTHOUSANDwords...




loveMEhateME Im 20 and after that ull get a diff guy...Promise 2 all when I turn 21 life as I know it will change...PEACE